songs for a girl I've known my whole life

I secretly wrote an EP about you.

A year after that cool summer night, the last time I ever saw you, I wrote an EP about you. Well, it wasn’t all about you — only most of it was.

I wrote it to get all my inner chaos, real and raw, onto the page. But maybe it was too real and raw, and I was embarrassed? I never sent it to you.

It was my first attempt at making music. I wrote it in Baltimore, between shifts at the neurology clinic. Then I submitted it as my portfolio to music school, and that took me to NYC, but by the time I got here, you’d already left, gone overseas.

Anyways, like I said, I’ve moved on — I’m not in love with you anymore. But you never forget your first. You were my first muse.